Often I sit before my MacBook and start to tweak a sound here, cut and at paste a volume there, load a midi file and listen to the result.
Sometimes I start to create music from scratch, carefully encoding each note's pitch and shape into a the strange, unmusical cypher which is Python. I expect the result to at the very least to make some of sound; occasionally it makes a sound so beautiful it brings me to the edge of tears.
It is not an English thing to talk with pride about ones creations or the emotions they induce. I am immensely proud of Sonic Field. It is not perfect; reluctantly I have accepted that I might be the only person who will ever use it. Nevertheless, I am proud. It has formed a large part of my life over the last three years. It has helped my career and my sanity. It has shaped my view of myself, caused arguments and impressed colleagues whilst simultaneously baffling them as to my motivations.
So why now Why pick this moment to look back? 30 months is hardly and anniversary (literally). No, there is a much more musical reason behind my feeling that an inflection point has been past. Sonic Field has, in my view, successfully played (rendered if you will) Bach. Not some modernised pastiche of Toccata And Fugue but transcriptions to midi of the original scores of Art Of Fugue and Passacaglia And Fugue. These are tremendously challenging pieces to synthesise repreocdce the beauty inherent in Bach's creations.
Oddly, I never intended to synthesis music with Sonic Field, my original goal was to process sounds to place them in a sensory place - using modelled reflections and other post processing techniques. Rapidly I realise that I would need music to feed Sonic Field and that I would need to make that music myself, so I started with synthesis. I had to learn a lot of information very quickly. My basic understanding of the physics of sound was nothing like enough to make anything other than squelchy yucky sounds. I guess you have to start somewhere.
The above piece uses the original concepts of Sonic Field (but much enhanced) to place a pipe organ in a realistic space.
By the summer of 2013 Sonic Field was in danger of ending as a project. It could well have become a footnote in my developer history. However, this did not happen. It did not happen for two reasons. Firstly,I'm started to commute by train to London and no longer worked from home. This happened alongside a realisation that working from a shed in the garden no longer appealed to me.
Consequently,I no longer had a den of writes in which to make sound with hardware. Suddenly, I had the need to some sound but no medium; I could have still play my sax I guess - but that is rather intrusive and not acceptable on a train!
So I restarted the Sonic Field project and even placed the code on Github. Which leads me on to the second reason I restarted the project, Python. Python is a programming language and I knew little of it. I took (just a year ago) a rather a poor view of Python because it is interpreted and a lot of very bad things have happened to computing (and to the development of technology in general) because of interpreters. However, Morgan Stanley (am customer at the time and now as it happens) were/are a big user of Python. I started to see why as well, it has many merits for creative coding. I needed a project to help me learn Python and so I ripped Sonic Field appart and replaced the bespoke language of implementation with Python.The above piece is the first I created in Sonic Field Python (sython).
My fear while using any general purpose interpreter is that it will become the main processing engine of a project. They have a habibit of doing that and it is very destructive. However, by being quite disciplined I think it have managed to avoid this happening. The up side is that Python is rather good at expressing some of the nuanced behaviour required to created music.
Above I use the power of Python to add details to the attack of notes to bring out the sound and open up its detail.
One cannot just design a sound in a pure engineering way. Trying to be all scientific and mathematical about sound produced a pompous non artistic effect. The only way, I believe, is to create a sound and then tweak it to reflect human emotion. Whilst my breath does no drive the sound from Sonic Field and my fingered do not dance over its keys as they do over my clarinet or sax' I do add my artistic input to each ote. Of then this is not directly, one note at a time. In the recent work I a doing with "Art Of Fugue" I will listen to a passage and then tweak and algorithm to reshape details about the way Sonic Field plays that passage. Each note is subtly changed until I get what I want.
For good or ill, I never do truly get what I want. No sound is ever finished. It would be too easy to create a soft, smooth synth' pad sound and say "hay isn't that cool" but I want to constantly push into new ideas. Whether that by a new generative music engine (like the work on Brownian motion I did earlier this year) or render extremely complex sounds like Bach or maybe very slow and gentle sounds like Black Knight, I always want improve on what I have already done or create something new.
It is an indulgence? Utterly! However, consider this: before the invention of the telephone exchange in the 19th century, the pipe organ had been the most complex machine invented by humans. We invested the peak of our abilities into creating music, into creating art. Is it so strange that I and so many others wish to continue to do so using computers. After all, they are the most complex machines we have ever created by a very, very long way.